Journey’s “Don’t Stop Believing” played on the radio as I drove home tonight from PC’s place. We had an amazing day together. A fabulous 24 hours. I kept pushing bad thoughts and destructive thoughts aside to enjoy my vacation. Including this upcoming interview.
So when I left his place tonight, with sea salt in my lungs and skin, su kissed skin, and sand everywhere, the thoughts of doubt about that application popped back. I really need that interview and I really need that job. For so many reasons. As Damen says “2015–our year it will happen!” And he is right! But I’m still so scared because I need out of this job just so bad.
The perk of today outside of an amazing day with PC, recharging my batteries in my escape haven: I wasn’t at work. Still was tortured via text. But in my haven I’m invincible: nothing gets to me it’s like Ed is barely audible.
That’s why when Journey came on I was praying it to be a sign. I have heard Eye of the Tiger and Journey in a course of 3 days. I have an email randomly sent that states “Never give up, Cassie” all this when I feel on the verge of cracking.
Please, please be signs for the best. I really need it. I need this.