Wtf did I do wrong do deserve so much unjust in my life? In such short periods of time?
I still don’t have my therapist because insurance companies are a fucking scamming joke. I’m barely hanging on.
I hate how at my job everyone gets away with murder and takes time off allll the time. I’ve been sick. Again. I should have had a week off but took 2 days. Bad idea. Still got shit for it.
And I just got slapped with a big ass bullshit fuck you by the state of California.
So I just lay curled in bed crying, praying to just have life end, while PC held me.
And all I kept thinking is “I can’t handle the world right now I’m so fucking done I can’t even”.
So I need a day off to deal with something and I text my boss and my response is that I’ve already taken too much time off.
For me to literally survive right now I need the rest of the week off. And I’ve had a total of 3 sick calls out. But everyone else in the department calls out sick at least once a week and no that is not an exaggeration. Plus their use of their nonexistent PTO while I have several hundred unused hours. Or the fact that they leave to go home early everyday.
I can’t tucking live in a world anymore where people have no respect for others [oh ya some one straight up used my parking spot and left all their meal trash], accountability, or responsibility.
It is a beyond unfair world. Beyond unjust.
I mean I’m the morbidly obese anorexic. How much more unfair do I deserve and wtf did I do?!