Ride

Ride- Twentyone Pilots
I just wanna stay in the sun where I find

I know it’s hard sometimes

Pieces of peace in the sun’s peace of mind

I know it’s hard sometimes

Yeah, I think about the end just way too much

But it’s fun to fantasize

On my enemies who wouldn’t wish who I was

But it’s fun to fantasize
Oh, oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride

Oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride

Taking my time on my ride
“I’d die for you,” that’s easy to say

We have a list of people that we would take

A bullet for them, a bullet for you

A bullet for everybody in this room

But I don’t seem to see many bullets coming through

See many bullets coming through

Metaphorically, I’m the man

But literally, I don’t know what I’d do

“I’d live for you,” and that’s hard to do

Even harder to say when you know it’s not true

Even harder to write when you know that tonight

There were people back home who tried talking to you

But then you ignored them still

All these questions they’re for real

Like “Who would you live for?”,

“Who would you die for?”

And “Would you ever kill?”
Oh, oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride

Oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride

Taking my time on my ride
I’ve been thinking too much

I’ve been thinking too much

I’ve been thinking too much

I’ve been thinking too much

(help me)

I’ve been thinking too much (I’ve been thinking too much)

I’ve been thinking too much (Help me)

I’ve been thinking too much (I’ve been thinking too much)

I’ve been thinking too much
Oh, oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride

Oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time

Taking my time on my ride
Oh, oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride

Oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my
I’ve been thinking too much

Help me

I’ve been thinking too much

Help me
I’ve been thinking too much (I’ve been thinking too much)

I’ve been thinking too much (help me)

I’ve been thinking too much (I’ve been thinking too much)

I’ve been thinking too much

Help me

Breathe Me

This song is gorgeous instrumentally and lyrically. I want to do a routine to it. But I also love that I feel like it captures how I feel in words and emotions. Feels right.

Breathe Me- Sia

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And the worst part is there’s no one else to blame
Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah, I think that I might break

Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me
Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Last Chance

Last Chance – Kaskade & Project 46

Please don’t break me

Please don’t let me fall

Please don’t break me and leave me nothing at all
Cause this is my one last chance to breathe

This is my one last chance to breathe [x2]

This is my one last chance, my one last chance to breathe
Please don’t break me and leave me nothing at all
Cause this is my one last chance to breathe

This is my one last chance to breathe [x2]

This is my one last chance, my one last chance to breathe

Control

This song has been a current favorite for about two months now. Really resonates.

It’s raw. The lyrics. The feeling. It’s me. It’s me vs Ed and Edie.

Always nice to find a song that validates myself.

Control- Halsey

They send me away to find them a fortune

A chest filled with diamonds and gold

The house was awake

With shadows and monsters

The hallways they echoed and groaned
I sat alone, in bed ’til the morning

I’m crying, “They’re coming for me”

And I tried to hold these secrets inside me

My mind’s like a deadly disease
I’m bigger than my body

I’m colder than this home

I’m meaner than my demons

I’m bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out,

“Please stop, you’re scaring me”

I can’t help this awful energy

Goddamn right, you should be scared of me

Who is in control?
I paced around for hours, on empty

I jumped at the slightest of sounds

And I couldn’t stand the person inside me

I turned all the mirrors around
I’m bigger than my body

I’m colder than this home

I’m meaner than my demons

I’m bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out,

“Please stop, you’re scaring me”

I can’t help this awful energy

Goddamn right, you should be scared of me

Who is in control?
I’m well acquainted

With villains that live in my bed

They beg me to write them

So they’ll never die when I’m dead
And I’ve grown familiar

With villains that live in my head

They beg me to write them

So I’ll never die when I’m dead
I’m bigger than my body

I’m colder than this home

I’m meaner than my demons

I’m bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out,

“Please stop, you’re scaring me”

I can’t help this awful energy

Goddamn right, you should be scared of me

Who is in control?

Oh.

New Favorite

Because I seriously relate. Like to almost all of the lines. 

Gasoline- Halsey

Are you insane like me? Been in pain like me?

Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me?

Just to pour that motherfucker down the drain like me?

Would you use your water bill to dry the stain like me?
Are you high enough without the Mary Jane like me?

Do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?

Do the people whisper ’bout you on the train like me?

Saying that you shouldn’t waste your pretty face like me?
And all the people say,
“You can’t wake up, this is not a dream,

You’re part of a machine, you are not a human being,

With your face all made up, living on a screen,

Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline.”
Oh, oh, oh, oh,

I think there’s a flaw in my code,

Oh, oh, oh, oh,

These voices won’t leave me alone,
Well my heart is golden, my hands are cold,
Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me?

Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me?

Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me?

Pointing fingers cause you’ll never take the blame like me?
And all the people say,
“You can’t wake up, this is not a dream,

You’re part of a machine, you are not a human being,

With your face all made up, living on a screen,

Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline.”
Oh, oh, oh, oh,

I think there’s a flaw in my code,

Oh, oh, oh, oh,

These voices won’t leave me alone,
Well my heart is golden, my hands are cold.

It also helps that it sounds amazing and her voice is gorgeous.